For the poor one says "Money isn't everything". For the rich one says "feelings + love aren't everything" To myself I look and say i am the most miserable b/c I am w/o both I don't want to feel sorry for myself, please don't take pitty on me, but for goodness sakes. I am at the lowest point I think I've ever been. Rock bottom. I feel lifeless, worthless, unloved. "To thy own self be true", but how does that all really work out? who knows. All i know is when I am out of this place i call a "house" i will be a NEW person. Revitalized, energized, renewed. I pray for this time. Life will go on for me. I am just thankful to GOd that i know life won't always be walking in the shadows. My sun will SHINE. For that day is a little less than 2 years away. Hurry. I'm waiting.
I didn't want to admit it, it was easier to lie, And hide the hurt and emptiness, to smile instead of cry. I didn't want to face the fact, My life is full of pain, And I long to stop my bleeding heart, And maybe smile again. Cause I feel oh-so-forgotten, so betrayed and so alone, Without a trace of forgiveness, And no sould to call my own. I didn't want to admit the fact, I cannot spread my wings. And my happiness has melted, into tears and other things. It's hard for me to hide the fact, my wishes have to home, and return to anguish, bow my head and cry alone.
Regardless of whether you love them, hate them, wish they would die or know that you would die without them... it matters not. Because once they enter your life, whatever you were to the world, they become everything to you. When you look them in the eyes, traveling to the depths of their souls and as you say a million things without even speaking, you know that your own life is consumed by their love. We love them for a million reasons; its a thing, an indescribable feeling.